Victoria's Secret Diet

Ever wonder what it would be like to have a body like an Angel? Mostly likely you said yes because, well let's face it, a Victoria's Secret model's body is so perfectly proportioned that it's enough to cause envy in anyone who has glanced at their catalog. But a body like that does not come from sheer will (like us Pro Anas/Mias), it takes extreme strict habits...not mention these habits are graciously invested in.

While the average daily diet has yet to been disclosed (although I am sure we can easily guess it), the diet leading up to the infamous Victoria's Secret Fashion Show has been spilled by Adriana Lima (and noted by other VS Angels).

According to Adriana, three weeks prior to the show, the VS Angels consume only specialized high protein shakes (brand named shakes contain too many chemicals, sugars, and additives) and a gallon of water; this is then combined with a intense workout twice a daily. This being said, solid food is prohibited. I would suspect it is for the obvious reasons (i.e. the "bulk" creating an illusion of being bloated until the said waste is eliminated).

Two days prior, Adriana revealed that the Angels stop their intake of protein shakes--sticking to exclusively only water, while still continuing their intense exercise regime.

Twelve hours before the show, the VS Angels "dry" themselves out by halting their intake of any fluids (water included). Stopping ones intake of liquid for this span of time can promise as much as a lose of 5 lbs.

While Adriana Lima did realize the mistake of giving this much info out to the media, her comments released after did rebuke what she had said prior...possibly in an attempt to protect the multi-million dollar industry that is Victoria's Secret.


Desiring an Angel's body,
                         ~Noi

The Nightmare of Mia

I cracked. I was so thristy and hungry that I went downstairs late at night/early in the morning and gorged myself in a downwards spiral of gluttony. Halfway through the pumpkin pie, the guilt of binging kicked in and I could feel the anxiety of the caloric number rising like bile in my throat. As a Pro Mia, I knew just what to do...purge it all.

Now, I have my own method with purging. If I know I am too late to vomit, I use a high dosage of a combination of laxatives (such as different pills and teas). However, if I know I can still pull it all up, I use a single chopstick to stimulate my gag reflex---and this usually works but, today it didn't.

I tried and tried and tried, over and over again without an success. I was disgusted with myself, since I knew that the caloric number was waaaayyyyy over my limit of 600 (which still feels like a lot to me).

I wasn't sure why it wasn't working. In a panic, I rushed to the pharmacy down the street and bought a box of 90 lax pills. After popping 6, I still felt grossly obese so, I walked 10 miles in hopes that the movement would help the purging process---if not just to burn off some calories.
I know Ana was there cackling at my failure. "This is what you get for eating, for being weak."

I think I'm going to retreat back to repetitive eating and liquid fasting. I'm not strong enough to allow myself to eat whatever I please. This is Ana's domain, Mia is only invited in to punish me.


Food truly is the Enemy,
               ~Noi

Not by my Choice

My father blew up yesterday during Thanksgiving....he was livid simply because my mother made an effort and made some vegan-friendly foods for me so I could join in the meal. Yes, i am aware this does not make sense logically but, the man is crazy. He got so riled up that before I could even eat, yanked me from the table, and literally dragged me out the door into the 37 degree weather. I had no shoes or coat and my arm hurt from him.

I ended up calling the cops but, the bastard lied and made it seem as though I was disobeying him. Now, I am not allowed to eat anything in the house because..."I didn't buy it with my money."

Sure, Ana maybe happy with this situation but, I tried eating lunch on Thanksgiving and, not purposely, threw it up. So I haven't eaten in two days now...I don't think he's even gonna let me have water.

I hate this so much and...I'm not even sure what to do. I'm scared. He says that he's going to cut off my funds for college too. I'm so tired of this "family." An abusive childhood was enough for me but, for it to continue into adulthood...I just don't know how much more I can take.


Silently screaming,
                 ~Noi

Slow and Steady Wins the Race

During Autumn of 2010, I was able to quickly and easily drop large quantities of weight in a short amount of time. By doing this, although I did not have a final goal weight, I was able to reach a thinner, more perfect form. However, the shorter time spand only set the foundation to gain it just as quickly back.

So, this time around...I'm gonna do it slower. Most weight loss journals and tips (for the average fat joe/jane), all suggest that by taking the weight loss process at a slower pace promises longer results. This is mainly because your body can adjust easier to the new weight levels. For instance, were one to Pro Ana diet their way down and hit a plateau, the slow pace it took to reach that level then ensure that the plateau will break once they take a period of "normal" eating, quicken their metabolic rate, and, thus, continue losing.

Rapidly dropping pounds is, therefore, not optimal for the long run. I mean, would you rather be thinner longer (and perhaps forever--by adjusting your body slowly) or quicker. Sure, quicker is pretty damn tempting but, who doesn't want to stay perfect forever? I know I do.


Strategy is key, my darlings,
                         ~Noi

Look but, Don't Touch!!

I've had a lot of time to think these past couple of days. For one, I haven't been going to the dining hall as often as I used to. I mainly only eat lunch now, since it gives me enough time to burn it/purge it before I go to sleep. However, although I am happily not experiencing the most hated "bulk" any more, I have slid into the comfortable groove of consuming the same foods everyday. I like it....but, at the same time I can't help but feel a bit bad that I am not eating as much veg as I should.

With that aside, I had to go through the uncomfortable situation of being held up in Improv class. The game entailed that I would be raised by four of guys and held there until the next scene--which, incidently, I was put in the frozen position of being still held up...but, only half way (which was scary).

I didn't like being the only girl in the scene because I knew something like this would happen. However, and I've noticed this before, when the guys were reassuring me they wouldn't drop me, all of them put a guess on my weight. They guessed I was ten pounds lighter than I actually am.

Previously, when I weighed in at 100 lbs, most people were certain I was actually 90 lbs...judging just by looking at me. I suppose I should be flattered but, I want to actually be lighter.

My clothes have been fitting looser as of late. I had to switch to a smaller jean size. Good news? This is just the start of the decline.


Never stop the loss,
                      ~Noi

New Tactics for the Big Challenge

The dreaded day of all Anas is approaching...Thanksgiving!!! Now, this isn't usually a big deal for me...one, I usually get sick around Thanksgiving and almost always spend the day bedridden and two, I'm a vegan. Last year, I slept the majority of the day and went downstairs just as the guests were leaving. Because my parents resent the fact that I am vegan, they don't bother making any food for me specifically. Which is both bad and good. I am being neglected but, hey, I don't have to eat. So, yay!

Anywho, heading back to my hometown is risky buisiness. I'm not allowed to go to the gym while I am there (they'll give the key to my overweight sister but not me) so, I think I am going to be restricting as much as I can.
Makes sense, right? If I am not burning the calories, then I should not be eating as much.

It goes without saying that I will be purging still...old habits die hard. I think I'll wander around town too--exercise plus, I don't really want to hang around the hostile household. It's motivation to not eat (when I am upset) but, it just is too much stress that I really could do without.

I want to be happy...and thin. Is that really such a difficult request?


Best of Luck on the Dreaded Day of Gluttony,
                                               ~Noi

The Taboo: Calories!!

Most would tend to believe that all calories are the same; that eating a 320 calorie candy bar would be the same as eating 320 calories of lettuce. I'm a bit skeptical of this belief simply because the majority of dieters attempt to eat healthier (i.e. making obvious better choices). Yet then again, I got down to my lowest by only eating produce...which is healthy...but, I know that there are Pro Anas out there that get to their lowest by consuming restricted amounts of junk food. So, are all calories the same?

I don't know.

However, what I do know is how my body reacts based on the foods I feed it, even if I restrict and purge. When I consume grains/beans/legumes/nuts/seeds, I feel disgusting afterwards (so I purge). Fruit perks me up, giving me an instant high but, gets me hungry. Vegetables make me feel full and indifferent.

I don't know...I suppose it all depends on the individual. Ask yourself when you're eating and become more consciously aware of how you react. Food V. You. Whose going to come out on top?

Never stop fighting the Thin Battle,
                    ~Noi

Fueled by Triggers

One of my most successful motivators to lose weight has always been my wrath. Not rage, not anger but, just starvation as a way of pay-back. This trigger mainly came from an incident with my father. Now, as far as I can remember, my father has always been the head honcho of the household, a tyrant, and, unfortunately, an abuser. As much as I would have loved to have had a happy, pleasant childhood worth having nostalgia over--there aren't any happy memories in my past that involve that man. I still have short flashbacks of him in my nightmares...

Early in September, I decided to get a tattoo of cherry blossoms down the side length of my body. I was set on getting inked, as I had wanted to two years prior but, was waiting for the opportunity to present itself. Knowing I was covering my tracks well enough, I used my card again, today, to get my naval pierced. Only problem was...the forty-dollar piercing overspent on my account...and my account is linked to his (even though it's all my money).

After dealing with a livid phone call with the man himself, the trigger began creeping back on me. I am not going to eat anything tomorrow...my disappearing act actually an act of revenge.

Let me clarify for a sec, this horrible man, after finding out about my tattoo began accusing me of nonsense of which I am not reprehensible. He called me a whore, a crack addict, an alcoholic, a failure, bashed my veganism (he REALLY hates that I'm vegan), and, on top of it all, had the nerve to state that I "used to be happy and tell him everything." Now, realistically, I don't think anyone in their right mind would share personal details about themselves to someone so...hostile (all the time).

I have to meet with him early in the morning tomorrow; it doesn't help to add that I am also very sick (I cannot stop coughing) and this whole situation is causing me unnecessary stress...

Behind pained eyes,
                        ~Noi

Tips and Tricks to Successfully Binge-Drink

Drunkorexia....some of us may have heard the term or seen it somewhere before. Similarly to Ana, the drunkorexic staves off hunger pains and saves a certain number of calories, after having eaten limited amount, for drinking...well, booze! Being in college has been a learning experience of how to obtain easy access alcohol--and it really isn't THAT hard to get some when you know how to use being an attractive chick (at least to others) to your advantage.

So...here are the simple guidelines to follow in Binge Drinking:
1) Make a lot of connections/network...it'll make the entire process go by smoother and ensure more fun
2) Eat your allowed number of calories before drinking
3) Never drink on an empty stomach!!!
4) Keep track of your liquer intake (i.e. one shot = 100 cal & one beer/wine = 100-120 cal)
5) Make sure you balance out your food with your alcohol...if one exceeds the other you will GAIN weight
6) Always opt for alcohol over an extra meal/piece of food/dessert/whatever
7) The plus side to getting drunk, over being gluttonous, is that you can relax/have no anxiety over food issues
8) Be sure to only binge drink on the weekend, this allows spare time in the week to exercise (calorie burner)
9) End the night with lots of water (prevents a nasty hangover and acts as a diuretic)
10) If you do end up throwing up, don't feel bad about it! You didn't want those calories anyway.

Drunkorexia is, incidently, quite common to find on a college campus...so don't feel alone. There are plenty of other girls that are saving their calories for their drunk days.

Drink up and enjoy life,
                       ~Noi