Besides my mannerisms and personality, as I just use those to hook the guy, my questions are more on a physical level. As I've said before, I don't like it when they say I have a pretty face--those are words reserved for FAT girls. However, I didn't like what else I heard...
This still rings a bit in my ear, serving as further motivation to simply halt it but--a guy told me he thought I was sexy because I was CURVY. Translate that...and once again, I am considered FAT.
I hate this. While I am still in the bulimia portion of my weight loss, I purge by all means to destroy that bloated perception of me. I exercise like crazy (every single day), I throw up to the point of coughing blood, and I over dose laxatives until my abdomen has me wringing in pain. I do all of this while restricting and limiting my foods, taking mixed combos of diet pills, and downing large quantities of water.
And yet...it feels all for naught.
Living with the curse of "curves,"
~Noi
I was born with natural curves too. No matter how skinny I got I always had them. He can only see your shape from what you're wearing he doesn't know what you look like naked so he can't know for sure you're fat. Curves come mostly from bone placement. Don't feel too bad, it makes me want to kill myself when I see a reflection of those curves because it makes me feel fat too.
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