The Battling of Two Sides

Today, like I promised, is a liquid fast day. And I know I was just so motivated and set on doing it but, just sitting here now....temptation is battling my motivation. The morning was easy, as I have an early morning dance class, so I'm able to easily skip breakfast and be able to burn calories. One of the girls in that class is soooo skinny, almost pixie-like, and I have a hunch that she is Pro Ana---because there is absolutely no way someone can look like that and just be ectomorph. Any who, my next class was talking about the revolution of packaging and how cereal came to be.....

This isn't good, since I know I promised to only eat produce, but that recollecting sensation in the back of my tongue brought back that crunchy satisfying texture that one experiences with cereal. Obviously cereal is bad...mainstream cereal being even worse with the notorious high fructose corn syrup (which makes you fat because it slows down your metabolism) and any corn derived ingredient. Corn is fed to cows to fatten them up. And I am not a cow. So what did I do? I used to eat the super healthy organic cereals (w/o corn ingredients)--and I'm not talking about Kashi...which is basically all evaporated cane sugar.
But cereal = carbs, which = bad.

I haven't touched the stuff in a while, wanting to gift it to myself once I get down to 118 lbs, at least but....I have been hankering for it.


Here's the motivation that stopped me from walking 30 min. to the grocery here....there's this cute guy in my dorm. Yes, yes, he is taken...aren't all the good ones? But, I just want to make him feel like I'm attractive, you know? It all sounds very stupid but, if I were to drop 20 lbs....I might just be able to draw him closer. Not that I want to be the other woman....I have far too much dignity for that.

Let's hope I can keep on the liquids for the rest of the day....
                        ~Noi